Thursday, November 02, 2006

Life changed...

Lately this few days, I had been typing, printing, cutting, laminating, hammering in school the whole time!!! It means, I had been skipping almost all my class recently. Not only that, I even had to stay back for backdrop and stay up late at night to finish up some prefects' stuff and some homework. You guys all should know that being a Head Girl of a school is very difficult but somehow, I do find joy in being one.
Being the Head Girl of my school for abt 4 months really taught me a lot. I still remember the first time when I was announced as the Head Girl on the first day I became my sch's emcee. I was quite surprised indeed but not THAT SUPRISED when our PKHEM announced it. In my mind that time was what am I going to do next?? I still remember ppl shaking my hands congratulating me. I had some sort of a brain freeze. Actually, I kind of knew what was going on because my sch's pricipal accidentally told me abt it. But, when he knew I didn't know, he quickly covered it up.
For the first week of my new indentity, I felt that my whole personality has changed from a jovial and crazy lil' girl to a lonely but, trying to keep her old self back. Everything changed! Not only in sch but at home too! My mum became so strict at me. Whatever I do like, I want to go out, she would say no. What she explained to me was since I am the Head Girl, I must also keep balance of my studies too. I must study hard and get good result to prove to ppl that I can balance both my acdemics and also my co-curricular acts. I was really stressed up and wanting to give up.
Nextly, my sch life also changed. My friendship with my best friends got further and further. I was feeling so lonely and sad. Besides, the teachers are getting quite fed up with me because I had to skip their classes. Sometimes, my closest friend even confess to me that I have changed. I became more bossy. I was so hurt hearing what she said. I was so sad and mad of myself. I didn't want myself to changed. I tried to apologised to her and told her to remind me that if I had ever changed again.
Even my blogging life also changed. I used to online almost everyday or at least once a week. But, ever since that, I could hardly have time to go online. I could hardly find the time to blog. I felt so left out and so lonely.
I had a lot of fun too after since that. I learnt to know more friends and got to get to know them more. Especially Effa, Norazalia, Syaza, Sukinah, Jack, Arman and more!!! I nvr figured that I could know so many cool and great friends. They are so honest and cool to hang out with. Besides, I also had fun doing backdrops, doing duty and so on.
I also learnt to interact more with the teachers. Though I could understand how a teacher would feel because Mummy is a teacher and I used to grow up in a staff room, I could actually know what the teacher wants, thinks and feels.
I also learnt to organised things well and do things more in a serious manner. I learnt to try to get things done on time and get things managed well. It's a priceless lesson.
Well, things aren't as bad as I thought it would be. I knowGod has a great plan ahead for me. He will always be there for me, guide me and protect me. I know that with Him, all things are POSSIBLE!!!

'I can do all things in Him, who strengthen me' Phillipians 4:13


lynnx01 said...

Yes, that's the price you have to pay. But look at the brighter side - at least you're done with Form 4, life won't be as hectic after you guys elect the junior prefects. As for friendships, they are always 'dynamics'. It gives you a taste of the outside world, somehow. As for skipping classes, oh.. teachers HATE prefects skipping classes esp Mdm Ling. Hahaha.. we kenak so much from her. As for Mummy being strict, you know for yourself she wants you to do well in studies too. But sometimes we're most used to the 'keadeh peneguhan negatif'. Will explain to you.. but pls lah, think of your future. Don't dream to become a superstar!

Sherp said...

you've been through a lot.. the ups and the downs and as you have described.. all the positive and negative sides provide you with memories, lessons... etc. it helps you to be tougher, and i guess i cant say it like lynnxjiejie, not as inspirational but "what she said" <- hehe./.. good luck and have fun in japan!