Thursday, March 09, 2006
I'm not getting what I want!
I'm not getting what I want. I can't believe it. I want something but, ntg in return. Sometimes, when I want something, what I get is always a second hand.
For eg, my current hp. I always wanted a phone and then, my dad gave me his which is 2100. But, isn't it his? I am still using a second hand. Another eg, my blue pencil case. It wasn't either. I wanted a pencil case last time in Form 1 but, my mum gave me my sister's. But, isn't it hers? Yes, I am using another second hand. I am always using ppl's second hands.
Except my MP3 player. I guess that was the only expensive thing that I really own. Not SECOND HANDS.
Guess my hard work takes time to pay off....
I just don't want to think about it now.
I still remembered how I cried when I didn't get anything for my 7A's PMR. Most of my friends asked me what I got and I must admit it was really hard to answer them that question. Whatever I answered didn't satisfied them. They didn't even believe that I didn't get anything.
I really have no mood for this. Even how hard I want it I just can't get it. Nvm. I guess God has smth even better for me. EVEN BETTER!!!!
I don't even want to think about it now! I think I just repeat what I just said.
Now I don't even think that whether that dream will some true or not.