Saturday, January 07, 2006

Oh Lord...

I just watched the Astro Drama Awards 2005. Well, now is 11.01pm. Finished storing the pictures and videos into my computer.
Before the show started, I was actually hesitating whether I need to go to youth tonight or not. I felt so sinful after thinking about it. I felt like, I had chose this before God. But, on the other hand, I don't think so. Even though there is no show tonight, I don't think I am going to go too because Daddy and Mummy won't feel like sending me to youth and fro and I won't go to youth every Saturday night unless I wanted to go. I kept praying to God and asked God for forgiveness. I just don't know how to feel. Some of my friends, though they don't go to youth, they still feel alright and ntg. Why am I feeling like this? Maybe it's because I fear God. Hopefully it is.
Prayer:
Oh God, forgive me for my silly act. Please do forgive me for what I had done. I want to confess my sin to you and repent. I was really selfish. I don't know whether I am wrong or not, whether I should feel like this or not. But, I know that no matter what, and no matter how I feel, I should come to You in prayer and express my feelings towards you. Oh merciful Lord, I pray Lord, that you forgive me, forgive me for what I had done. I just don't know what to do and how to feel. No matter what oh Lord, forgive me, control and guide me so that I will not repeat this sinful act again. Thank You Lord for your grace and mercy.
Amen.

I really hope that God will forgive me and I know He will because He is a forgiving God. No matter I am wrong or not, all I just need to do, go to God in prayer. He is the only One who can help me. Please pray for me that I will not do it again. Thank you Lord!

3 comments:

ningxrainbow said...

Heyhey! I also watch the astro wah lai toi drama award...
~You pray morelor..

Sherp said...

i understand that u feel insecure because u feel as if u are disobeying God for not going, i sometimes feel like that and whenever i pray nowadays, i have a distracted mind, as if there are so many jumbled up thoughts that i can hardly concentrate on what i am praying/ o, and keep up your good work in being a very Faithful Christian, i admire you very much in your strong faith, and i hope to be just like you, please pray for me as well

Madonna said...

me here.., probably wouldn't read this.. and probably it's too late..... but just decided to read ur blog... hmmm... ur lucky you can go to youth, my dad won't let me go at all....

anyway... it's true that God forgives you.... but the Holy Spirit will continue to convict you if you go on putting God behind everything else.... anyway... hope you do well in you Add maths! God bless.